Honestly, I’m a lazy piece of shit with no life goals whatsoever, I pretty much sit around all day and think about death, how, when and where I’m going to leave this damned planet. I lie to avoid the unsettling truths I refuse to tell to those around me and sometimes to myself.
What keeps me going is the idea that “this is what I’m supposed to do.” Get a job, go to school, graduate, have a career, a life, “This is what you’re supposed to do.” well fuck if I wanna do that. I wanna lay in the grass on a sunny day and neglect all my responsibilities with someone that honestly makes me feel like I’m supposed to be here, that there is an actual meaning to my existence and not just going through the motions. Why is it preordained before I am even born that this is what life is supposed to be? That this system that we have is acceptable and must be followed.
I faced all kinds of shit in my short 19 years of life and I’m not saying no one else has but I’ve faced depression, utter loneliness, conflicts with assholes who used to be my friends, and for what? I just end up missing those assholes… why do I miss them? Because at some point I called them my “friend, bro, bra, bruh, dude, dudette”… I strive to be around people I like yet I spend so much time in a room by myself with nothing more than music by my side because lately it’s gotten harder to stay in touch with those people. On the opposite, I sometimes have people tell me I am anti social which if I seem that way to you, I don’t like you or your company. Why should I bother socializing with you? I refuse to put on a happy face and act like you and I are friends when in reality I don’t much care for you. There’s really only a handful of people I care about. Depression sure was a trip…I’m not going anywhere, yes you are, you amount to nothing, well I’m going to try to be something, why bother? Because what else is there? Give up, go on. You’ve got nothing to live for, there’s a reason to live…
I do my best to help with everyone’s problems and my advice is to never bottle things up inside, but I’ve no one to talk to so that’s why I’m typing. In fact I haven’t had anyone to talk to in ages…
the most unrealistic thing about high school musical is that they let ryan wear hats in class
true friendship is talking about masturbating and it not being weird
A guy once told my lesbian friend that being a lesbian is a huge turn off for guys and that she’ll never find a boyfriend.
You could say Microsoft ruined video games forever by buying Rare and it wouldn’t be an overstatement.